For Women Who Want The Ballerific Life!
I'm having a Joan Clayton Man Issue
I FINALLY got it right and have met the most wonderful man ever in life. He's patient, kind, understanding and likes me for me..flaws and all. I could on and on about this perfectly imperfect man... :)
We've been dating for a little while now and though it's still a bit early, we know we have something incredibly special.
Until recently..he found out he has to move to Arizona in 6 months to take care of a huge situation.
I JUST got him!!!! *ugh* *whiny voice*
The logical part of me is saying walk away now and wish him well...while my heart is telling me to stay and enjoy this man up until the very moment he leaves.
I can't even lie..I'm beginning to fall for him. And now he's leaving...
I don't know what to do...stay or leave? Head or Heart?
What would you do?
So, I decided to give it a chance..and this s*** blew up all in my face.
I told him that I have enjoyed him so much and I was willing to make the best of the time we had left and see what happens from there....
When I say he went way to the left....He went waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to the left....saying some of the meanest things I ever heard in my life. Instantly I realized this move is more than he let on and it's his way of "breaking up with me". His reasoning was (and I'm putting is extremely nicely..he was way harsh)...he doesn't know me very well and the person he will be with, he'll know for years before he gets in a serious relationship or take a chance on.It was like I was talking to a complete stranger...a COMPLETE STRANGER. He was so cold. I was speechless. Seriously.
I'm in shock because this man sat in my truck on Friday night and cried in front of me..yes, TEARS down both sides of his face.....telling me how much he cares for me and how he doesn't want to leave me. How much he likes me and how he's sorry for having his guard up with me and I didn't derserve that...
I'm still blown away... like..damn.
Needless to say, it's over. I blocked him out of everything and I don't EVER want to see or talk to him again.
He was right abour one thing...we sure didn't know each other. Wow..wow wow...
My gut is telling me to stick it out as well SC & CB. He has to be in AZ at least a year. It's the not knowing what will happen after the move that has me torn the most. He told me just this past weekend that it's going to be so hard leaving me and he's been trying to figure out a way to not have to stay so long. *ugh*
My gut is saying stay... I'm going to take it one day at a time. He's still here, might as well enjoy him.
Ya'll make it sound so easy but you're right lol