I am so depressed...i don't know what to do, I've tried to get closer to God but everytime I try something always happens. The devil is always working and I'm living with so many demons I can't even think straight. I gave up dancing 2 months ago to get right spiritually, but it's not helping...i feel like my life will end soon....i've been thinking about suicide a lot lately but I think i'm just too afraid to do it. I know it's selfish and I wouldn't want to hurt my parents or my brother but i don't think I have any other options....i have to drink and take valiums just to sleep at night and i still can't sleep even then...im really afraid..i thought about checking myself into a mental hospital but then i would lose everything because i wouldn't be able to pay my bills....financially everything has gone downhill...when i think i cross one bridge another one magically appears...everytime i hear a noise in my house i get paranoid...i don't do drugs, so it's not some crazy side effect...im sorry i shouldn't be writing this 

 

 

I thank you all for all your encouraging words and prayers...I spoke with my mother and father and they recommended i see a doctor. I went today to see a psychiatrist, (i was actually on the road when shelli called...thanks love) and the b-tch pissed me off to the point i threw her paper weight name tag from her desk at her...She kept telling me i'm depressed...

Her: "You're depressed"

Me: I know

Her: why are you depressed?

Me: if i knew I would would diagnose myself

 

LIKE WTF!!! This s-it went on for an hour and a half until I walked out....i KNOW I'M DEPRESSED wtf does she keep telling me this s-it for

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Ally, I'm sorry to hear you are going thru this...

Keep yourself in light; open windows, light white candals, go to the park. Pray and ask God to bring you out of this. He will remove all distractions when he wants our attention! 

I will pray for you my sister..
Go and seek professional help ASAP!!

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Ally, I'm sorry to hear you are going thru this... Keep yourself in light; open windows, light white candals, go to the park. Pray and ask God to bring you out of this. He will remove all distractions when he wants our attention! 

I will pray for you my sister..

{{cyber hugs}} Ally you're in my thoughts and prayers. Do you have a support system (mother, father, cousins) you can contact ASAP?

Recite the Lords Prayer for strength, peace and encouragement!!! Don't give up!!

Ally.. it will get better. Find something you are good at and find a way to make money off of it. You shared with us that you were a stripper. Well were you good on the pole? Teach pole dancing classes. I know girls that are making a lot of money off of this. Most strippers are great at doing makeup. Take a makeup class and start doing that.

 

I was never a dancer but I made fast money by working in a nightclub. I only had to work one day a week to pay my bills plus some. When the money stopped I was f***** depressed! I got up off of my ass a month later and moved to another city. Sometimes you have to leave everything behind and start all over again in a new city.

 

You will get it together...I know you will.

My prayers go out to u! Definitely go seek some help. Suicide is never the answer. Problems are temporary, but death is permanent. Please think of those that love you and know that when you are on the right road the devil gets more busy. You are on the brink of your break through, so keep pushing foward in your good works. Things will get better. They have to, right?! Just get the right people in your circle and pray as a team. Fast if you can. Gather scriptures and read them so the Word is continuously in your mouth. I rebuke Satan in the Name of Jesus and agree with you that the evil spirit will depart! Don't wait, call a help line or get counseling somewhere ASAP.
Alley Dont give up on God because he will never give up on You....please pray and ask him for help

Stay strong!!! Suicide is NEVER the answer!!! Sounds like u need the man upstairs NOW MORE THAN EVER!!! TRUST we have ALL HAD OUR DAYS... I was thinking mine was eff'd up today until i read ur post.. U may not believe it, but just when u think ur doing bad, look around and im almost CERTAIN u will find someone WAY WORSE OFF THAN YOU!!! You gotta find the BLESSING in the LESSON!!!

If it weren't for the dark clouds and the storms how would we be able to appreciate the blue skies and sunny days???

I have a number you can call 1-800-273-8255.. They can help you.. GOD BLESS & BE SAFE

Madame Dinero beat me to it :-)

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255): Suicide hotline, 24/7 free and confidential, nationwide network of crisis centers

CALL THEM NOW IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY!!!!

Ally!!! C'mon chica, We all have our times when we are down and out. I don't know what you are going through but know that you are not alone. We love you here!!! You are a beautiful, bubbly, and happy spirit! Everything will be alright, just pray and know that God has you back and won't let you down. Just don't give up on him!

U may need to seek help... I felt the exact same way after having my son. I had a near death experience after his birth, which kinda messed with my mind a little bit. My sister and mother would have to constantly remind me that I can't live life fearing death. But if you let your faith slip for just one minute at your deepest darkest point the devil steps right in. There is someone close to you who helps keep you down. U need to get rid of that person. Or maybe a memory thats bothering u. You need to talk to someone about it. I had to pray and hold my son at random just to take my mind off of it. DO NOT DRINK! It helps you forget but it makes u too forgetful when you are already depressed. Life isn't ending soon unless God says so, the devil is on your back sweetie, and you need to pray over yourself, your family and your home whenever you become fearful. Keep your Bible close. You can't truly say u have faith in the most high and still be afraid.< Thats what I told myself. He will never let you down. I can't begin to tell u how much wrong I've done. None of us are perfect, But if you just take a breath, take a walk, listen to some music, pray, and let him in, he will save you from the devil and the demons that are trying to take your soul. You're stronger than this. If you weren't you wouldnt be posting this discussion, we'd be reading about u and seeing your story on the news. God is holding on to you, just let him pull u away. You may leave some people behind u don't wanna leave but life moves on. If they aren't helping they're harming. Let them go, and do whatever makes you happier. We got one shot, and God didnt put us here to think about our dying day.

Girl I'm so sorry to hear that, I've been there too, please seek help, call the crisis line, they will direct you to free services http://www.psychotherapist.net/crisis-hotlines.htm you don't have to check in the hospital but they will direct you to professionals who will work with you. Treat it as physical illness if you get sick you have to go to the doctor.  And please please stop drinking and taking meds, it will only make it worse for you. Try to go to the nature, ocean, walk, run, make yourself physically tried it will help you sleep better, don't stay in the house. I know it's hard for you financially but when I was in my darkest place volunteering helped me to forget about my own problems and I met great people who became my friends and supporters.

Write everything what bothers you and whatever negative you have in on the paper and burn it. Do it everyday until you feel as all it doesn't belong to you anymore. It helps!

 

And pray on the candle everyday. In the evening before you go to bed light up the candle, look at it and first say thank you to God and everyone, say you are thankful and grateful for everything in your life, that you forgive everyone who harmed you and you let the negative go and after it say what you wish for yourself: Something like I wish to be happy, wealthy and healthy, say you are beautiful, incredible and successful, and while saying it imagine yourself as such, think of representation of each word, what means being happy specifically for you , like if success for you means x amount of money on the account - imagine those money as its already yours, you have it. If it's successful marriage, imagine it in a detail as you are married and your relationship in everyday routine. if its a job imagine you are doing this job. Do it for 40 days, every day and then forget about it, throw the candle away too, better in the ocean. This will do everything for you. I did it and everything I wished came to me. 

Another thing try to think about your goals, what do you want in life, and make a plan. Think of every little step and write it down, this will give your life a direction and you wont be overwhelmed. 

Girl you will be alright, you are great woman and all you need is just a helping hand right now. Stay strong and don't give up, God never gives you anything you cant't handle. 

Ally, we sometimes go through it to get to it. Don't allow the devil to win. As a counselor I must encourage you to seek help. If there is someone you can trust and rely on for support? 

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