Finally Happy

Hey Ladies

I was checking out the "Dating Standards" topic and it made me think about some of the jerks I have dated in the past. I can honestly say I have been through a lot. I've dealt with a lying and cheating boyfriend. I dealt with someone who used to emotionally abused me and dealt with someone who TRIED to physically abuse me till I stood up to him and told him I wish he would(I would of been going to jail that night lol). Just reading that post just made me realize I have to set my standards higher.

I had a rough year. Me and my ex broke up and then we stayed friends for a little while and just recently I had to really let him go because I realized that he wanted to do him but keep me on the side. I just got tired of it. He has cheated on me in the past and has done other things to disrespect me. I finally realized that I couldn't continue to let someone disrespect me like that anymore. I was in love and I still am. I was always depressed and crying. I know I was too good of a woman to let myself get treated this way. I spoke to a close friend about my situation and she told me "girl you need to start praying" and that's what I did. Just the other day I happened to be on facebook and I saw my ex had written basically some subliminal messages on his status about a female. I was livid for the simple fact he told me he wasn't with anyone else and just focusing on him. I thought I was going to break down and cry like I usually do. But I didn't, I finally realized how strong I am and not going to let ANYONE or ANYTHING break me down anymore. I did myself the favor of just removing myself from the situation. I deleted him off my friends list. I deleted his number. I took his letter and cards put them in a box and put it in my basement. I just knew I had to stop hurting myself. I was tired of the lies and the baby mama drama. He was like my best friend, someone I could always talk to about my problems. Even though he cheated, he was always there for me no matter what. He has been there more than my some of my so called friends and even parents. He has hurt me deeply but I am not mad. There's moments that I think about the pain and emotional hurt I dealt with and want to cry; then I have to remind myself it was a learning experience and it has given me a whole new perspective on life. I know now first hand, and as a living witness that God is able. I have never leaned on him more than then any other time in my life. I thank God for that experience, and it may sound weird but it changed me as a person completely.

I definitely have a reason to smile. I am 24 with no kids. I just graduated from college and I landed a great job in my field. I am focusing on me and trying to become a more better person and prayer really worked for me. I am so happy and content with life right now. There are 3 certain females friends who I am really close to and I pray to god and thank him for bringing them into my life. They've showed me what it means to be a REAL FRIEND.


I just wanted to write this because I just never thought I would be HAPPY with myself. I used to be so angry and cursing everyone and their mama out but I've finally have grown into a mature woman.